NIИ....I hurt myself today to see if I still feel....

I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting try to kill it all away, but I remember everything, What have I become? my sweetest friend, everyone I know goes away in the end, You could have it all my empire of dirt, I will let you down, I will make you hurt, I wear this crown of shit upon my liar's chair, full of broken thoughts I cannot repair, beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear, you are someone else I am still right here, what have I become? my sweetest friend, everyone I know goes away in the end, you could call have it all my empire of dirt, I will let you down, I will make you hurt, if I could start again a million miles away....